Yah, we had a new plan for our short trip tomorrow. So we will visit some place much better than Port Macquarie.
Monday, 9am departure from Sydney,
lunch break on the way at Newcastle.
Then Walter will drive up to Byron Bay,
(yes, we almost get to gold coast)
if possible, we can catch the sunset at light house and sunrise at Tallow Beach next day.
Tuesday,heading back, depart for Red Rock, (210km)
then Coffs Harbour (approx 40km from Red rock).
Wednesday, leaving newcastle and New Year Eve firework.
We decide to drive the long exhausting distance when we are fresh, and only 2-3 hours on the last day trip. =)

Weather will be nice but i discover my camera is broken (i thought it was out of battery only). What to do?

兩個寂寞
作詞：廖士賢　作曲：周杰倫　合唱：(Rap)周杰倫

拿起了紅蘋果　放在嘴巴咬一口　咬出了一個缺口　排遣這寂寞
再咬一口蘋果　多出了一個缺口　還是一樣的結果　一樣的寂寞
站在鏡子前面轉身　眼前多了一個分身
站在鏡子前面轉身　眼前多了一個

兩個女人兩個世界的寂寞　一左一右在等待著什麼
窗外的細雨無聲無息飄落　將美麗化成了彩虹

Rap:　我又夢見　我在某個角落　我感覺這孤獨
一天一天在將呼吸減弱　心跳變弱　直到有天沒有力氣再去感動
我不想這樣過下去　這不是我　我猜想愛情到底躲在哪個角落
我不想讓孤獨再一直將我傷分析　愛的位置愛的蹤跡愛的座標
哪擱算抹出來　只好繼續夢下去（台語）

currently listening to 陶晶瑩 - 《青春》and like this song 《兩個寂寞》.

在圣诞节后的第一个凌晨，习惯性地失眠。听着一首旋律很美，而仔细去看歌词会被其赤裸程度下一跳的歌。慢慢地有了一丝倦意。今年的平安夜，与Sandra 和 Christine 一起度过。年初时许下的愿没有实现，没有读完想读的书，时间就这样过去了。我想象着如果儿時起所學的關於時間的概念不是這樣﹐人們不是在對它若得若失週旋中﹐ 或許會多一份自在。時間是汪洋的大海﹐你在海裡面﹐無論你願不願以﹐海水總會動﹐按著它的方向﹐不會因你而改變。時間是上帝創造的﹐上帝看大海﹐高高地向下看﹐猶如一面平鏡﹐他給予每一個人都是同一個﹐但你可以選擇你的航道。

Got an email from johnlai today (he was my comp 1a tutor). :D
It has been a year since he came back to Taiwan and he has been working at VIA Technologies doing IC Design for a while. To all who have met him, john is a capable and bright person. He helped us a lot during his haskell tutorials and even gave extra classes for assignments. I think I might still keep the email he replied. ( you should guess what kind of questions I asked when I first touched computer and coding in year 1). Really glad to know he is enjoying the fast-pace life in tw.

3 days trip to Port Macquarie will be the last excitement before I go to china. As the weather is getting hotter, I start to worry about the bush fire. I can still remember the squally weather last time we drived pass the port shephens after a few hours of melting in the car.

Yang gave a 6-in-1 multi-styler today as my Christmas present and I really wonder how to burn my hair with these crimping, curling and spiral plates. May be the thomas the tank engine is a better alternative for me. (JKing)

And mum and grandpa sent me a nice 3-d christmas card. I don't think they will celebrate Christmas without me there. I could still remember every chrsitmas morning i woke up when i was a child. I could always found lots of Gifts under my blanket or my pillow. Mum once handmade a santa claus pillow(round shape) and filled it with lots of fairytale story books. I knew she was sewing it at night after i slept. Mum is the most outstanding woman i know. She endured so many pains in her life but never cries. So she wrote me "sydney doesn't believe in tear" (an old film 'moscow doesn't believe in tear', russia) in a letter when i was melancholic. I wish i can have the courage and fortitude of her.

merry christmas!

Proverbs 23
15 My son, if your heart is wise,
then my heart will be glad;
16 my inmost being will rejoice
when your lips speak what is right.

Just finish reading 'catch me if you can ' by frank w. Abagnale. People may fascinate his teenager experience, even his life in prison.
As he said to the media.'once i did the things i did, it was impossible to go back'. Sometimes, it is the inner you who decide what to do. There are always two version of 'me' inside talking to each other. therefore the result will depend on which one diminishes its power.
In the past 2 years, i have changed a lot. Thank God for this. God works in our heart and renew it.

Took out all the paintings from the 5002 storey room and threw away the biggest one to the nearest recycle bin( i do care about the environment). Maybe the same destiny for the rest of them sooner or later.

I found hard to communicate with him in same language, even he can speak very well chinese. It is not easy to express my feeling and thought by proper english(like this.. writing blogs). And my vocal cord do not resonate well within the throat and he is a baritone in excellent voice. lots of difference.

The petrol station shop renovated to 'coles express' today but nothing changed so far inside it. Went to scott and vivian's new home. very impressed by the huge backyard and the 7 year-old dog 'scooter'. The picture when we're all standing appeared in my dream before. I do not mind this happens frequently but i really wonder why. Hope one day i can get answer.

Watched a Jack black's movie yesterday. A guitarist with huge delusions of grandeur. Felt sorry for those 10 year-old children got touch to the other side of the town far too early. The rock music certainly doesnt release my nerve tension and caused 2 innocent deaths in my 5 hours nightmare. :-(

Kerry woke me up at 8:30 and i rushed to uni in 15 mins, because it is my turn to do nametag today. I tried my best to recall people's name this time, but still ...sigh.. my poor memory.
Libing starts to lead bible study today. My mind wasn't sharp and awake i guess. I should sleep eariler next saturday night.
Drizzled off and on for a week already. Holiday is great, i have lots of time for reading and watching videos. Also catch up with long-time-no-see friends. I havent seen carmen in person after HSC. ( cant believe that 4 years has passed by). yesterday was her birthday. When I was on the train to Sutherland I saw Gymea, i thought i might send a "happy birthday" message to her when i got home.
The relationship between us , four of us is getting worse.
I hope no one will get hurt in any way.. I don't want to be selfish. I blamed S that it is his fault. But indeed, i am so tired.. i do not want a gathering.

NAME: Harry James Potter
AGE: 14
BIRTHDAY: July 31, 1980
PARENTS: James Potter/Lily Evans-Potter
SIBLINGS: None
FRIENDS: Ron Weasley, Hermione Granger, Hagrid, Dean Thomas, Seamus Finnigan, Fred & George Weasley, Lee Jordan, Fleur Delacour, Viktor Krum, Katie Bell, Angelina Johnson, the Weasleys, etc.
ENEMIES: Lord Voldemort/Tom Marvolo Riddle, Draco Malfoy, Lucius Malfoy, Dudley Dursley, Gregory Goyle, Vincent Crabbe, Piers Polkiss, Barty Crouch Jr., Vernon & Petunia Dursley, Rita Skeeter, Dementors, Peter Pettigrew.
PETS: Hedwig the Owl
POSITION: Gryffindor student, seeker for the Gryffindor Quidditch team, "The Boy Who Lived," Triwizard Tournament competitor, and a Hogwarts hero.
QUOTES: "I'm a what?" / "You know your mother, [Draco] Malfoy? - that expression she's got, like she's dung under her nose? Has she always looked like that or was it just becuase you were with her?"

Got my new glasses today! i look very mature in this pair, but i like it. Went to St Thomas Church for the Mark Peterson new CD launch concert today. The band was great! Bought a new book from kinokuniya, hope i will finish reading it by the end of year.

Toujours, elle fait son nid
dans le coeur des amours.

Amanda asked me how to write "dear" in japanese email. I guess the greeting word for letter is too formal for email. Japanese are like chinese, they do not use 'dear' word for everyone unless they are very close. i am very reluctant to use this word in my letters. maybe i havent totally submersed into the foreign culture.

decadence:
she whimpered: "i am decaying!", leave me alone. she laughed and passed away like sunshine.

I know deeply in mind how late hours can undermine my health as well as cognition. as a wicked and evil person, i did something repeatedly wrong.
who can pardon this person. sigh...

it is not the first time I saw this flower's name "Love-Lies-Bleeding".
it belongs to the amaranth family of flowering plants in the order Caryophyllales, with about 60 genera and more than 800 species of herbs, with a few shrubs, trees, and vines, native to tropical America.

Now i have a big map of east asia on my wall. Surprisingly, it corrects lots of geographical locus perception i had before. have heaps of thoughts everytime i look at it.

You wonder you ponder.

You were the one who said I am cruel. Now i convince myself that it is You-the one who always confuses me . and try to make me feel guilty of not treating you good.
You say:The sword is tearing the heart, the heart is bleeding to dry.
I say:Words of you is just a lie.

Went to the SUS meeting for China mission at moollege(i invented this word for moore college ) ... very very touched by Peter's words and their missionary in china. Pray that more students will become christian while they study in australia and go back to homeland to share the gospel.
i will probably open a coffee shop in shanghai ( haha i wish!) . while i brew coffee i can start presenting TWTL to them. may be i should have the six pictures on the wall.
it is a really enviable job.

i will practise write prose rather than bullet point for my blog in the future.

Just a quick note to the things i have learnt today.
From matthias media briefing magazine:
If someone doesnt appreciate the current church meeting or gathering with bros and sisters in Christ, how can he/she rejoice in heaven where we will be together forever and ever?
Someone who hates meeting friends, how can he/she suddenly change to love doing this in heaven?
I personally think there will be ample time for us to change our attitude since we have already start learning God's words day by day. But there are plenty people whose hearts are very "hard". I need to tell them.
Thanks Tina for the acupuncture and professional massage. I feel much better now.
Thanks Sandra spent lots of time with me when I was sick.
Thanks Caroline,Judy,Grace,Isabel and Libing.

IWANTODRINKCOFFEE!!!

一笑萬古春 ﹐一啼萬古愁 。

This Way Up Just came back from saltlight concert. Despite the not-so-good sound effect, the overall concert was good. I can see they have put lots of effect into it. If they could give us lyrics, I probably would enjoy it more. (lyrics is very important to me)

I live as young once,
crowd and loud,
on that day, we will smile,
in high glee.

Be Thou my vision, O Lord of my heart,
Be all else but naught to me, save that Thou art;
Be Thou my best thought in the day and the night,
Both waking and sleeping, Thy presence my light.
Be Thou my wisdom, be Thou my true Word;
Be Thou ever with me and I with Thee, Lord;
Be Thou my great Father, and I Thy true son;
Be Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.
Be Thou my breastplate, my sword for the fight;
Be Thou my whole armor, be Thou my true might;
Be Thou my soul's shelter, be Thou my strong tower,
O raise Thou me heavenward, great Power of my power.
(Sandra doesnt have chance to sing this song to me :P)

Remember the love not pain.

Dust quickly accumulates if i don't sweep my room..i made my final decision to throw away 4 bags of old stuff. The feeling is great.

つかれているんです。 :( でも きょうは しけんが あるから、あまり休みたくないんです。

すきな人がいるんです!!!

A is Question, B is answer.
A: すきな人がいるんです。
B: 電話を かけたら どうですか。
一緒に食事をしたら どうですか。
一緒に海に行ったら どうですか。
A: とても ふとったんです。
B: 食べ過ぎ(たべすぎ) ないほうがいいです。
よく　運動した　ほうが いいですよ。
お茶をたくさん飲んだほうが いいですよ。

A: のどが いたいんです。
B: 水をたくさん飲んだほうが いいですよ。
薬をたくさん飲んだほうが いいですよ。
早く　かえった　ほうが いいですよ。
よく 休んだ ほんが いいですよ。

A: 腰(こし)が いたいんです。
B: 病院(びょういん) に いった ほんが いいですよ。
無理(むり)を しない ほんが いいですよ。
学校を 休んたら どうですが。

A: 今, お金が ないんです。
B: 仕事(しごと)をした　ほうが いいですよ。
両親に 言いたら どうですが。
旅行に 行かない ほんが いいですよ。
彼(かれ)から　借りたら　どうですか。

the way i say love u

Sam sam's birthday dinner. lots of nice food plus cake, and 2 icecream.
i will start on my diet plan again tomorrow! need to fit into the dress ya...........

why my voice so low and you can still hear?

Dont harrow yourself with any bitter thinking.
Do the thing you have promised to your family.

Dear God, this is my prayer. Pray everything will be fine. Everything is according to your will. i will never leave you no matter where i go and no matter what happens. I want to stay in australia.

GReat Greaat ! this book shows me how to get into sleep.huuray.. by the time i finish reading i will zzz...

I sneezed at the exactly same spot in HMV pitt st. shop. :~)
Bought 3 books from 紀伊国屋 (きのくにや)。一本是林清玄 的<玄想>﹐還有兩本﹐ 漫畫月刊﹐只是想畫畫才買下。
出門時是帶著日文書﹐畫本去圖書館的﹐走在路上﹐突然覺得很想去sutherland。一個頗遠的地方﹐可惜沒有帶上抽屜裡的紅玫瑰。 天空陰陰﹐ 清爽的空氣﹐和眼角泛出的液體混在一起。周末的校園最美 ﹐ 有一個朋友在攝影﹐來來回回見到他三次。
在這個世界上﹐尋找一個可以孤獨的角落何嘗容易。
"Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I’m just a little unwell
How I used to be"

寧可死個楓葉的紅
燦爛的狂舞天空﹐
去追向南飛的鴻雁﹐
--朱湘

i can barely get of the bed for days and missed morning tutorial today. I finished whole bottle of "nin jiom pei pa koa" which Sandra gave me( this tastes much much nicer than the senega mixture). i am still not getting any better. I couldnt go to Hebrew study, i cant talk to mum on the phone ( she will worry )and i can not do anything for carol(pray pray). Every time i'm sick, i wish i could be monitored by my mum.
I was riding my bike on the highway in my dream. And climbing endless steps in a building. I wonder what i am looking for in my life.

"We do not know why but we do know whom.
Therefore we trust the one who does know why"

eye guard is my sincere buddy.

But love is blind, and lovers cannot see… -- William Shakespeare

Time heals the wounds.

TO Carol
曾經說過文字是很可怕的東西﹐你將它寫出來﹐就等于把你的心靈寫出來了﹐放在那裡讓人看。智慧的人﹐或者很巧的一個人﹐簡簡單單地把你看透了去 ,如果你是個很脆弱的人﹐還是少寫些為妙。幸好幸好﹐世上智慧的﹐和那很巧就能讀懂你的人還是很少。往往他們草草地將目光在你的文字上掃一遍﹐已經是你的奢求了。大可放心﹐他們的目光絕不會將你的文字帶走點什麼﹐反而﹐也許還會胡亂地撒下一些所謂的他們的想法他們的見解。所以﹐大多數人還是喜歡前者﹐並不怕被人讀懂﹐畢竟物以稀為貴﹐ 此類人真的不多。

Please leave half of the acrylic tubes for me next time. for they fill the white and saturate me with the colors. I do need to use them sometimes, though u know i am a monochromist.

Watched the movie 2nd time(I still dont like it), then I jumped out of bed around 2am. I am quite lucid during the night but always want to slink in the corner of somewhere. Being the antithesis of a patient person, I have to wait for the sunlight which i hate.
Therefore I raided my closet, i have too much clothes and it is inexcusable. I faced two choices, go and buy a new ironing board or throw them away. I do not like to give away my outfits to salvation army clothes bin unless they are brand new. But most of those brand new ones are from mum's parcel which i am reluctantly keeping them. If i am a parent, I decide to smack my head. ( it is another topic).
I picked my hippopotamus top but i wore the "pumped" today.

Selected works of Broughton Knox
(Volume 2): Church and Ministry

Talked with S. She reinforced again and again that we should love others even those we dont like.
Once for a while, P was the only person in my fellowship i didnt like(no reason). And I prayed to God that I want to be her *SEF* while we played this game during MYC. coz then i have to take care of her and like her.
I flabbergasted that God really heard my pray, and I was her SEF. =) God is amazing.

yesterday, when i woke up i saw a message from Mazz on my mobile. I doubt whether Mazz saw me at Richmond station on Sunday. For that short moment i eagerly wanted to give a call and decide a date to meet up. But soon after i said to myself i dont have time.
and I have spent my time on doing collage,painting and paper cutting whole night. Manipulating with different textures and ended up very sick of this humdrum activity. it is so hard to make me love abstract art.

do not mimic him, do not mimic me doing!
kilometrico is leaking,
i disillusioned.

i love you, grandpa.

Sophie stood there, waving her hand and calling papa.

Went to Asian Club 5 yesterday night, helping with crech this year as well. I couldn't sleep for whole night. I can explain it and I don't want to. Therefore I've just experienced the worst/coldest night in my life. i intended to leave Merroo as soon as possible in the morning but glad i stayed then i have a chance to see Ben, Mattew, Jacob,Solomon, Hanna and Daniel again. And I have seen the most beautiful water vapor(fog) in cloudlike masses lying close on the surface of the lake. it is about 5:30am.
and I wish i could stay there one more night to listen to Phillip Jensen's talk.=(

study

“No creature smarts so little as a fool”(Alexander Pope)

i was going to sleep about 3 hours . now i am back to my computer typing randomly thoughts on the web. Uncle left hospital today and may back to japan in days. He is getting older and older and longer the healthiest person in the family. Pray to God that he can understand God's word one day then we will have long time together.

while we were waiting for bus home yesterday, i noticed GG knitted her brows...it is the symptom of unhappiness i guessed . so i said to her: do not knit your brows.( i always remind my mum if she's doing so). As usual, GG replied me straight away,"why do you care so much?" . i was a bit shocked coz i never meant to mind others business too much unless i care about the person. May be she was just tired, and i should keep quite from now on.
but it hurts,sis.

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation.
And it's getting more and more absurd.
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over?
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word.

the song is everywhere.

-Went to eastgarden to chose gift for a friend today.
-Had a long black at bayswiss along with 85% dark chocolate.
-Indulged the bitterness in my mouth.
-I had a long talk with mum yesterday night, deciding whether I should go back to shanghai this year. I got sort of feeling that she doesnt really want me back. but she didnt say it...and let me myself to decide... so i booked the ticket.
I love her so much. i just want to see her more within my short life span
-I read a few passages of Exodus yesterday in church. I feel like reading them again now...
-my favourite singer from australian idol - lauren is crying on the stage at the moment.

The mobile you have bought, I have broken it on Sep 26,2003. Only last one year.

just realized that I have been using this blogsite for a while..but I still don't know how to refresh the post each time. so i am experiencing problem...I can't find my previous entries...well,i miss my old black cover diary.

Just came back from CSE revue, it was great. We met B at the end of the show. C handed her gift, a photo album containing all the memorable moment, to B. Wish C can get over this tough period soon.

hsbc starts to charge me bank fee, so i have to put certain amount of money into the account to avoid the monthly charge. I need to find a job asap.
Uncle is still in the hospital. I can barely do anything for him except praying. I am so sad that all of my family members have serious health problem. Now, I stop picturing about the future because I am afraid to do so..

Got an email from gina today with a pic of nemo sushi. i swear i won't have sashimi for 1 month(extendable).

so please do not kill it.

drawing is my only joy.

so happy that virginia asked me to be her wedding bridesmaid .. lalala

what's the point to drink decaf coffee?
....................................................................

I watched Mulholland Drive with dada today.

Cache from yahoo movie review"A woman (Herring) is abandoned on Mulholland Drive, following a car accident, suffering from amnesia. She makes her way to an apartment where she meets an aspiring actress who helps her put the pieces of her life, and the mystery of it all, back together. Elsewhere, other stories and characters weave into this ensemble piece, including a director (Theroux) with mobster problems, and a man whose dream comes true... (Michael J. Anderson plays a studio executive; Ann Miller plays the manager of the apartment complex)."
和dada讨论了一会儿， 终于有点懂这片子的意思了。。
我还是简简单单生活在这里， 不要有什么梦。 All the dreams are just illusions, it will only drive you crazy. 我害怕我的结局也会如此，所以在我还可以控制的时候， 尽量让作一个正常人。

Went to kinokunya after work yesterday. I finally found the chinese print fuyumi sorya's comic book. The price is only 1/3 of the English print. Her style is quite similar to jochen's drawing. and i purchased a new drawing book today at uni. This is the smallest one i have ever bought which is the same size as the comic book.

Benv lecturer Andrew suggests us to go cofa but i rather browse thru these fabulous graphic books. I wish i could stay there longer but i had go to caroline's place for Hebrew study.
I want to work there indeed.

i suddenly become very scared when i heard uncle's voice on the phone. At the first place , I didnt realise how serious his illness is. He couldn't ever talk on the phone. ..

海马那天拿了个美丽的戒指套在小甲虫右手的无名指上， 说你做我的女朋友吧。小甲虫猶豫了一下﹐ 她知道自己愛的是飛狐﹐ 可是飛狐正天忙著在雪山上行俠正義﹐對虫虫視而不見。。。海馬急了﹐說’我想我能保证爱你四五年‘。小甲虫抬頭望了一眼誠懇的海馬﹐給了他一個非常甜的笑。海馬開心地將小甲虫摟進懷裡。。小甲虫知道四五年對于海馬來說已經
是很大的承諾了﹐四五年後海馬對于自己是否是留在陸地上還是回大海也不是很確定﹐更
何況虫類的壽命本來就比較短﹐ 虫虫好想戀愛。于是﹐天下就多了著樣一對愛人。

2 asian were killed on Barker st and Kennedy st two-storey flat this afternoon. I am waiting for further news report on this. Hope the flat number is not 104 because i am pretty sure our flat isn't in red color.

I was quite stupid enough to leave my walkman's speaker on all the way i up to uni today.Then I walked into building env lift, two girls said something about the Cd. The radio channel turnt to chaos while i was in the lift. Then i took off the headphone, but i could still hear the music...was very embarassed.
The sky was nice today.

Apparently, my hand is shaking.

Today is grandpa's birthday. Two days after mid-autumn each year according to chinese lunar calender. Uncle left Tokyo and back home tonight. This is the first time he went back since 1997 since i was still in shanghai. I rang mom in the morning, she wasnt at home. She went to the hospital and prescribed medicine for me. I have already overdosed too many known/unknown tablets that she sent me, but if she likes doing so.. I will keep taking. And she and grandpa went to postoffice to post a parcel containing those tablets and lots of clothes and shoes. Then i called her again during dinner time. Coz i knew she was expecting my call. She needs to go the tutoring school tomorrow so she can't meet uncle tomorrow. She suddenly got very frustrated and cut the phone. 10 mins later, when i called her back, she said she went back from downstairs twice to check if the phone rings. I dont know how to describe my feeling. What i did in last 10 mins was: swallow 6 tablets and waiting for next stomachache...........
my life is miserable at the moment.


why you've repeated that passage? You want to test if i can hold my tears this time or not? Why you have always pose as i do?

well.. the pain comes .. i am dying again

i can only imagine walk by your side with same pace:)

too much homework need to be done by thursday. this drives me crazy. specially seeing a girl in my benv class has done so much terrific and amazing artworks in her visual diary and my brain undergo 2 hours long brainstorming in hci tutorial. more sadly . i locked myself outside the room coz i forgot to bring the key when i took the rabbish downstairs..........4am now. still not asleep. remember the chinese say.. my bed is as close as inches but as far as sky-edge (i made this up). i have 4 more pages for hsi assignment .the interactive test for japn and benv diary due today.

Blue suggests coolness, distance, spirituality, or perhaps reserved elegance. Some shade of blue is flattering to almost anyone. In its negative mode, we can think of the "blues"-the implication being one of sadness, passivity, alienation, or depression.

i hate talking about copyright issue.

people nowadays start to carry their phone, camera, computer, radio and even tv wherever they go(in terms of mobile technology)! i guess there is not much thing left at home.

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-nexium:esomeprazole for one week
-ultrasound:upper abdomen tomorrow
-try to analyze emotional depression out
-someone from unsw nss accidently dropped all my subjects
-learnt some japanese sign (deaf people's hand sign)...

do not fill empty time with worrying

i was watching Spirit Away (ǧÅcǧŒ¤) yesterday.. it is really astounding to see how Qian's parents became pigs after eating those food... i quickly put down the chips i was eating ...hehe...i am gonna watch ¹¬Æé¿¥(HayaoMiyazaki)'s another 2 films soon ! yahhh..happy

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Rothko wrote : “I think of my pictures as dramas; the shapes in the pictures are the performers. They have been created from the need for a group of actors who are able to move dramatically without embarrassment and execute gestures without shame".

my alarm clock is out of battery and i accidently selected PUK code option on my mobile.. then my mobile was locked. :(

(song lyric) 詞:姚謙

飛的理由 如果這個時候窗外有風我就有了飛的理由心中累積的悲傷和快樂你懂了 所以我自由你不懂 所以我墜落 如果這個時候窗外有雲我就有了思念藉口愛引動我飛行中的雙翅你回應 我靠近天堂你沉默 我成了經過翅膀的命運是迎風我的愛當你把愛轉向的時候我隻身飛向孤寂的宇宙眷戀的命運是寂寞我的愛當你人間遊倦的時候我會在天涯與你相逢

我很少晒太陽﹐ 是個為了找樹蔭而繞一大圈路走的人。今天﹐陽光透過薄薄的雲和冬天沒有樹葉的樹枝﹐滑過銀白的屋頂﹐晒到坐在窗邊的我﹐竟然如此愜意﹐讓我懷疑我是否愛上了這陽光。

錯覺有時很美麗。

It is so exciting to see Christine on the blog too :D . and first time we had something in common : same background for our blog ( is it the default one ?)

-- 仿彿自己的身體分裂成兩個﹐彼此追著跑。

每一次和他談話總讓人很失望。當他將自己很誠實地呈現在你面前。真實的他。我竟不敢相信這是我曾深愛過的人。 懷疑我曾愛過的是誰﹖ 因為不了解﹐所以我愛過的他﹐只是一個半假想出來的人物。。。攙雜著一部份我所了解的他, 和其余我拼湊上去的性格﹐這個人物很大一部份是空缺的﹐我乎略的。我也曾想過﹐這樣一個少了這麼多的人竟然可以被我愛著。如今﹐這人被他自己像jigsaw拼圖般拼上去後﹐我用雙手捂住嘴﹐驚恐地張大我的眼。於是瞬間殘留在我心中的一切變得一點也不重要了。

-- 死不是生的對立﹐而是它的一部份。

生在這頭死在那頭。而我是在這頭不在那頭。

有時給他的祝福或者只是普通的話語﹐都顯得很牽強﹐也許只是想草草結束交談。我不恨他因為愛的反義詞不是恨﹐只是不愛罷了。反過來想到痛的過程﹐往往比愛到不愛的過程長。無怪乎這是此時此刻我的想法﹐因為剛剛從愛走到不愛 , 但那痛的終點仿彿還是很遙遠。

記得去年這個時候﹐我在拼命作畫一張接一張瘋了一般。把每個人物的眼睛都畫滿了淚水﹐然後望著他們的眼睛自己哭試圖借口是因為陪他們一起傷心而哭的。很可悲的我。

发霉的阳光， 倾斜的钢笔尖。鼻梁上打了很重的阴影。 就像李敖评三毛一样，让人心情突然变得很坏。
没有人有权利去指责别人的不美丽和其美丽爱情的不妥， 更何况你是李敖。 你可以把一个普通的背赞美成那样， 为何无法包容一下没有修饰的外表？

每天还是想着一些奇怪的事， 想那些很远的人与事。
迪妮的信， 看了总让我觉得很难过， 我们长大后竟然与我们梦想的相差这么大。 倩的小铺，才开了两天，就有些丧气。
给爷爷寄了新年卡。 新年很忙， 除了功课外， 还有许多事。 桑德拉给我的摺花真不知道什么时候才有
空。很美的东西。

那一天， 猫咪跑到彩虹上下不下来了。。