I did a fitful sleep last night, woke up by the shining sun. Think again that I am in sydney and I am alone. Everything was seared away in one blazing instant of fear. Faced with the bleak hollowness of a world. Why did I come back so early? But what can I do if I stay there? Am I able to take all those responsibilities?
Like the film i recently watched, I always believe that I am haunted by a curse which destines me to fail in every family relationship or reach out for help from nowhere. (Very ironic is that I am a christian. I have to encourage myself from the other point of view. Nothing is predictable except our far future. And where is my favourite verse in bible 'do not worry...'? ) sigh, uncle, I gave you my unrealistic future plan but that's the only thing keep me going. I am tired and exhausted at the age of 24.
well,I have to struggle to get up.

"a plank that reaches no where."