不喜欢时间的流失，不喜欢岁月的更变。
不想去面对未来，自己却在忙碌中写着自己的历史。

车上， G 说我做错了一些事。我无意的言语伤害了她，哪怕我的笑也被意会成其他意思，听后很害怕，自知不是很圆滑的人，本已经很恐惧周遭的人与事了，现在又多了一份胆怯。 每天都要见到人，无论是想见的抑或是不想见的，无所谓见到不见到的和想见又怕见的，提及已头晕晕了， 更不用说要与他们交谈。 从小就是话不多的人，有时实在是没话找话说才说的。 以前有一个好朋友，我俩在一起不说话也能很开心，看看对方，或对着傻笑。 今年回上海遇到她，我们坐在王家沙吃东西，她说她的男友前一天提出和她分手，唯一的理由是她的话太少，无法知道她心里在想什麽。 这是自她与汪分开后，多年来第一次交往，她说每次约会时看着对面的他听他讲话，已很幸福。突然间被放开，而且错在于她， 她有些想不明白。 叹息，她的美丽与她的爱情是这么的不称， 为什麽不去追问更多的理由，为什麽孤独一人？ 我没有问她。 我也没有答案。

不知为何想到她，为何将故事写下。漫无目的，悠晃在自己的世界。。。

Yesterday I went to play badminton with some church friends and met my classmates on the other court. Later, during the session I swapped to their court. One of the guys played very well even by using his left hand to compete with us. But sadly I overheard too much swear words from the girl next to me...and the shallow-joke between them.....well, that's what I call suffering.
Now I am preparing for the bible study I will lead tonight which is on Ephesians 5:1-21. I felt so lucky that I am surrounded by a group of Christians most of the time and I can always live in the light that shines forth from God.
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Eph 5:3 But among you there must not be even a hint of sexual immorality, or of any kind of impurity, or of greed, because these are improper for God's holy people. 4Nor should there be obscenity foolish talk or coarse joking, which are out of place, but rather thanksgiving. (NIV)
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Well, swearing still exists among our Christian. Last year I received a strange/rude sms message on my mobile from a friend. This person called me last week and tried to "clear things up", and he asked me not to be angry with him when he comes back to our church. I said I won't. As long as he can forget the bad thing happened to him I can forget too. If he can come back and listen to God's words. What a joyful thing it is!

今天我在找一样我丢失（不久）的东西-写过却被我删去的blog，无论我用什麽方法都无法寻回，其实它已存在记忆中，只是想有实体的证据罢了。

I wish I am an angel..I can drop happiness to others.
I wish I am an angel..I don't need to have human feelings...
Just the frail happiness I hold.

刚才在楼下对着我那被撞坏的单车车轮又踩又踢，想把它踢回原来的形状，脚都被划破了，满手弄得黑黑的，还是不行。看来又要重新换一个轮子。 换轮子的花费已超过车的价钱。。。可是舍不得丢呀，毕竟它跟了我七年了。。。我是男生就好了，力气会大很多，一定能把它踢回原状！
郁闷，直好上楼继续看书了！

Dear Heavenly Father, thanks for everything you did and doing for us. Thanks for listening to our prayers and I am so glad that Jane finally can come to mbf's seminar. Please open her heart and let her to know you. Please help us to talk to them(new christian) wisely and sincerely.
Also thanks for providing Manda the job interview next wednesday. I really wish she could work on campus so she can have more time to serve you.
Pray that I can have more opportunities to talk to Danni, share my belief with her.
And dear God, you know every single thought of me. You know what I am lacking. Please help me to stand firm in you till the end.
上帝，我将我的一切，我的未来较在您手里，让我能一直仰赖您。

My landlord Iris was robbed by a Caucasian boy at the intersection of Gardeners Road and Houston Road 4:30 this afternoon.The little boy dragged her into the driving lane at the back of our building. Her handbag was scattered into pieces after 5 mins battle, her right face was hit by him as well. Lucky, the neighbourhood dog started to bark loudly and the boy ran away and shouted "bloody woman!".
Well, he didn't expect Iris would be that strong to hold her bag for so "long" and he might think it was such an easy task to rob a Asian woman.
4:30pm! I cannnot believe this did happen. I was walking on the same street half hour later than her(peacefully listening to my walkman). The sun was still up, heaps men and women on the street as well as cars... Poor Iris, she is still so frightened and decide to leave Australia..meanwhile she has to get a new bag for work.. and it will be a big backpack bag... sigh.. she used to tell me not to walk on the small street but we cannot safely walk on the main street during daytime now. I hate this.

As scott mentioned in his article, slashdot has a forum thread on topic "What Happens To Your Data When You Die?". I did think about it *seriously* this morning. Unlike the rest of thing I will leave in this world which might be given away for different purpose.I guess the data hiden in my pc won't be appealing to anyone or useful to write "the secret life of jieni" since I am not famous. Meanwhile I'm more worry about "What Happens To You When Your Data Die?". Imagine one day the cables lay underneath the ocean break, the satellites not longer operate or just the electricity black out. How would I survive? Well, I might just accept the fact like when I went to myc->a week without my computer. *blink blink* Is there any similarities between myc and heaven?

How Evil is the window's explorer????
I just finished typeing up my notes of today's CBS on the blogger window.. and it's gone!!! arghhh!!!

眼泪不是虫茧，不能一天一天去建造；
眼泪不是潮水，不会说来就来地涌出；
But the emotional cocoon that she was building around herself was just about to come crashing down, do you remember?
你以为？不能理解别人的感受，就不要轻易去评价。

第一次遇到T.L.是Year 1他来旁听R.B的课， 我与丹妮坐在教室的后面。 当我们正高兴地拿出两个桔子剥到一半时， 提姆便在同一排右边坐下，我们赶紧将桔子藏到桌下。。。他一坐就是一节课，害得我双手冰冻地握了一小时的桔子。 从此，他就被我们叫做“桔子”。今天，丹妮毕业，有幸与他合照。他问我何时真正毕业。 不晓，恐怕。。。