To Nicole & Keith/Reese & Ryan/Marissa & Ryan
以前从来不懂
怎样美惊世骇俗能让你回头
着了迷，动了心，驻了足；
那么，这样的美在你的眼里又能留多久？

你说错都是你的
同情分都是我的
如果我追逐
你永远会在前面

有一点点舍不得, 只捡回几本APC & Time & nonnon.厚重的calculus & microelectronics还留着镇底,以防书架头重脚轻. 发誓再也不买无聊的八卦,时装,动漫杂志了. 车库里的一箱也丢了. 咚咚地倒进黄盖垃圾桶. 还有旧的打印机,取暖炉,烫衣板和椅子都不要了.
不喜欢看到它们在路边自生自灭, 所以能塞进回收Bin的都塞进去了..... 明天早上就有垃圾车来运走, 心里爽得一踏糊涂. (大大满足了我的"丢东西"的癖好) 眼不见为净, 就当这些从未发生, 从未拥有过. 以后再也不会记起.

爱心提示:
千万不要把重要东西加在书里(或衣服口袋里). 不然它们也就永远消失了. 其实不管重要不重要, 是情书还是废纸, 钞票还是发票 ....记得一句话, 失去才觉得重要.

移动书架， 整理房间。 丢了很多集灰的东西。 很多书和杂志， 用很结实的垃圾袋装了两袋.

I am in a weirdo hairstyle right now. The fact is the hairdresser cut it, I didn't like it and I cut it again. It's kind of metaphor of my life - someone's planned it, and I didn't like. Then i tried to make it my way and screwed it up in the end.

Why am I blogging anyway?

Really can't get into sleep tonight. Have been back to my desk and turnt on my pc twice already. I guess either I think too much or online too much. I gonna put off the whole blog thing for awhile not that I have been online often lately. Just hate facing the screen and not able to talk to the person I want to!
Typing 2 letters made me feel so daunting and miserable. That might be a reason. And only 2! Can you imagine how many I have to read like a story that never happened to me before??

I can't remember how long I have been using this computer. But it seems to have 2001's files and i accidently digged them out....Made me even more insomnious.
I tried to recharge the flat Ni-MH battery of my old MD-player. Finally found the song on track 09. It's called "persist in". A song with lyrics like "love me makes you cry" when the guy sings. And "love you makes me cry" when it comes to female version... Repeated once and the battery died in half way.

oh well, ciao for now. and wish me good luck.

I begin to read/write them again, revisit my past through these letters. Courage, girl!
上海的家要拆了，整理东西时妈妈说这些你要的话就带走吧。我如获至宝，这些大多是1994-1999的家信， 有爸爸写给我，妈妈写给我的， 还有我写给家人的。 那时的感情比较丰富写了很多，也因为是家信，比较真实，但报喜不报忧。所以那算是黑暗时期的快乐书信，经历过的事能留下足迹已经很不错了。今天只打了1994年和1999年7月的两封信， 1999年的那篇太长，要休息后继续。

Today is the premiere of Dan's film production "twenty two". Planned to meet her at Chauvel Cinema 6pm, but I couldn't crawl my way there after work. I was really exhausted. You can hear my outcry for a strong coffee despite the fact I won't be able to sleep tonight and a worse day follows...

我买书太莽撞， 在Border这种一应俱全的大书店, 很少买下书. 反而在自己的老巢DJ, 看一看书背后的简介就毫不犹豫的买下了. 也许以前上班时习惯偷偷翻书看, 那里的书比较肤浅. 因为DJ只进bestseller, 几乎没有Literature的书. 而bestseller又和 billboard 上的歌一样, 十年内不会成为经典.
通俗易懂的东西适合我. 强烈的灯光, 也是买书冲动的原因之一吧.
希望能把每一次买回家来的书看完再放到书架上去!

I am waiting for the day that my blog can switch to blogger in beta. It's always hard to get in the beginning. Remember those day that you've only got 3 precious gmail invitations to your friend?
The great thing about beta is I can categorize posts like others.(blogger is slow this time). I will surely post more when my life is getting busier :P Meanwhile, i am lacking of topic to write.
chao!

我们互换名字吧
让我带着你飞
当思念排山蹈海地涌来时

把你想象成天上那颗最亮的星星
当看见你却又那么遥远时

shanghai
这个城市， 只留下了20%成长的记忆;
50%的我属于远方的大洋洲.
碎碎念, 另外的30%去哪儿了?
过去的记忆与现在的我，加起来凑不成整数。