Time is not a healer, broken friendship is hard to reconcile. The noise, a shrill and belligerent gabble between these two, began to churn all the information out of my brain as well as the stuff I ate. Cannot blame on Kimchi this time.

Petals around the rose story
and the game.

Good weekends away

Targoola

Australian Sea Shack - Old Erowal Bay

Hardys Bay

Bannister's Point Lodge Mollymook

Blackdown Rural Estate - Bathurst

Casa Belle Guest House - Bellingen

Collits' Inn - Hartley vale

Coombing Park - Carcoar

Crown and Anchor - Eden

Crystal Creek Retreat

Duntryleague Guesthouse -Orange

Ginninderry Homestead - MacGregor ACT

Gully Falls House - Via Dungog

Hill END B&B

Jonah's - Palm Beach

Langi-Dorn B&B - Kurrajong Hills

Lilianfels Blue Mountains Resort - Katoomba

Mona- Braidwood

Old Convent - Borenore

Old Leura Dairy

On The Rocks - Yamba

Pleasant Heights B&B - Mt Pleasant

Promised Land cottages - Via Bellingen

Rooster Hill Guest house - Oberon

Sojourn at Far Meadow

The Tin Dog - Federal

The York - Kingston, ACT

Tomah Mountain Lodge

Tower Lodge - Hunter Valley

Tumbling Waters Retreat - Stanwell Tops

University House - Acton, ACT

Woodbyne Private Hotel - Jaspers Brush

Everything went so smooth today, the sydney medical centre was quiet and doctor was waiting for you without an appointment ahead. And 15mins in the X-ray room and was told there is nothing wrong with my lower spine! Then I can get onto next stage of treatment or more exercise instead.
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Each of us received an "anonymous" Xmas gift from "Santa" after lunch party.(Santa didn't know how to pronounce my name!!)
K gave me a bottle of coffee liqueur chocolate sauce and all my taste buds were amplified instantly. Many people got mugs/wine/boxed chocolates. We can't stop teasing Chris after he opened his gift - an iron! Tomorrow will be last day of non-mufti of this year, let's see what he gonna wear! ho ho ho ho..
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Next a few days will be my busiest workng period. G used the term "desperate need money" to describe me in a mocking tone many times. I had a thought to quit my DJ job early this week but I will keep it so that I can have less time with these kind of indifferent people.
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2006.01.03
G has been searching a career move after the new year break. I asked her why, she gave me an answer. I regret what I posted here and want to apologise for my tempersome words.

Next year, I will learn, I will try and love someone!!!

Road

5 ambulances, 3 police cars and 1 fire engine
Disturbed all the way home by non-stop siren. People bashing each other, being grabbed by policeman. An fire engine crashed into another innocent 4 wheels drive on the way to save others.
Now I constantly fear the surrounding and have less expectation for the future to come.
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Work
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Life
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Dream
I had a really wonderful dream yesterday, I was describing a beautiful beautiful place I've been in another wonderful dream a few weeks ago.
I underwent a painful revulsion when I realised that I chosed to crueller world to wake up.
(bk on dc)

The day before, I "woke up" in my dream and I saw my room was like a fish tank. Pinky petals were floating on the water surface as rays of sunshine was pouring through. It was so beautiful. In my dream, mom convinced me that the water would be good for me but she has to empty it after I got up so that I could breathe.

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Yesterday, in my dream I walked with my beloved dad. We were like father and daughter.
We tried to deposit money into a bank but somehow the transaction was terminated because of the business closing. With partial amount of cash we rode down to a crowded place. He bought me an unusual toy - a lanky cotton-filled soft puppet. I hold it so close to my heart and it almost became flat. Then he bought me another two in similar kind. I was happy ... but a minute later, I lost him... I asked everyone there, "did you see my dad?". I must cried...where are you dad? It was so dark outside, I can't go home by myself. where are you dad, it was too dark outside, how can you leave by yourself?!

mp3 player has been popular for years, but where can I go to purchase mp3 files directly from? iTune cards are available anywhere, still fail to cohere the fast pace of our life.

这个月很有盼头， 明天去吃大餐, 周六有婚礼, 周日去大学同学家BBQ. 周一有Training,可以一天不用上班, 接下来还有公司的派对和快乐的假期...到处都是圣诞树, 也想做个游戏把它们数一数.
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要 给妈妈一份礼物, 去店里逛了又逛, 买衣服她一定不要, 买吃的...她已经有一盒曲奇一盒凤梨酥一盒巧克力了. 看到了一个发叉, 简单的黑色, 夏天时可以将散在两鬓的发搂上去, 看了价格$59.95,(DJ的东西实在贵, 今天已经有两个人向我抱怨过了, 好像DJ是我开的一样). 如此奢侈的东西, 买了也会被妈妈退回去的. 那只好回家问她, 妈妈你最想要什麽了吧.
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其实如果反过来问自己, 有幸福平安的生活, 有吃有穿有住, 有能力工作, 再要太多东西就是贪心了. 记得有一场电影, 剧中把"不贪心"当作一种美德, 每天过着很知足的生活, 不忧伤, 不烦恼.
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明天是第八年, 又带了个瓷做的小天使, 放在那里。 隔壁那一位多了两只玻璃的大鸟, 大鸟的彩色翅膀折射出很好看的光，也正好可以为小天使们遮阳, 这也是我第一次看到这么多的玫瑰一起绽放。