今天是夏令时改动的日子，本来就少了一个小时睡觉，但约好了W, 一起去Kingsford 的Sunday market买仙人球, 所以要更早起身.
去 得太早, 小摊们刚刚把摊子摆好. 太阳很大也很热. 我们寻找着漂亮的植物, 后来遇到一个戴着帽子的太太, 她的门前有很多小棵的盆栽, 有仙人掌, 石榴花和有些还带着露珠, 很秀气的紫罗兰. 因为我是很挑剔的人， 我是来买仙人球的, 可那太太花了四年才长大开花的长刺白琅玉，美针玉和天照球我怎么也看不上眼。 更不喜欢长得像毒瘤那些，只喜欢简单的, 选了半天都定不下来. 那时已是8点37分， 站在一边的丈夫(老伯)说你们有时间的话去我家看吧， 手上已提了两盆的我还很贪心， 就拖着耐心的W和E一起去他们的家了....

这也是我第一次在别人的家的花园呆住, 我从没见过这么多的盆里种的植物, 上上下下有近千盆. 有些显然已长到了它们的盛期, 有些是刚刚摘下准备嫁接的, 有矮矮却已挂满果实的草莓树, 有细细的珍珠柳, 还有俗气的招财树. 老伯一边介绍一边教给我们养花的技巧. 而且不是‘种花’而是‘养花’, 也不是为了卖钱才养的, 他看到喜欢花的人就开心。 他还说仙人球是生命力很强的植物,需要很少的照顾, 在澳洲这个环境下是没有理由种不好的,也就是说适合我这样的懒人种.
我开始想象外公若有这样一个大大的后院, 他会有多幸福. 想到了他的吊兰, 妈妈帮他刻的水仙, 陈洁咪经常啃的那棵芦荟... 种花种草是我的梦想...
L是不喜欢的, 和我说要养小猫时一样, 她说你先把自己养好再说..我说我已经把自己养得白白胖胖了..
她又说, 我不管, 只要你保证不会有虫爬出来, 嗯....我想虫虫们应该更愿意和土在一起吧.

今天去买了用完的warm yellow, cold red and white.
这样基本上所有的颜色都可以调出来了. 暖色可以安抚心情, 专心地配色可以让我忘记一切.
俐下午回家， 看见桌上的一大堆的画画东西， 急急忙忙地跑进我的房间，
问我，are you ok? 她知道我一般是不会画画的, 除非我十分烦躁时...
这样一幅画，谁都可以涂出来, 也可以编织出许多故事。
原来有一个很好的故事的,
但现在心情又很差,
好想在无谓的喧闹中一直游戏下去,
现实的世界也同样无聊.

Let it grow.

I extracted some notes from so far I have read and typed them up.
http://tabura.focuser.net/archives/002437.html

I still don't know what happened to you during last 2 years of uni.
I think your grade is much better than me...what else? pressure from assignment??? career???
And you have your both parents on your graduation day, you said you are NOT happy??!!!!
How could you say that?!!!
I wish one of my parents could be there, then I will certainly go to my OWN graduation!
silly you! Treasure what you have!!
Are you happy to make me frustrated??

TO S,
Due the extremely busy schedule this week and the lack of sleep, I couldn't check each comment on my blog and reply in time. I did read your last comment yesterday and was vexed. Don't know how to reply but it doesn't mean I neglected it.

I was in Kinokuniya bookshop today and spent an hour to read and choose a Christian book on the topic "Why evil and suffering in this world". I'm not sure I bought the right book so please allow me some time to read and digest it. If you want to read the whole book, I can give to you when you come. I can also mail it to you if you send me your postal address to my email.

I will wear that fate tomorrow.

Why babies cry in the middle of the sermon? Will they get frightened to see so many people in the congregation? May be they scare of those heads trying to sneak up on them and squeeze their hands? oh.. if I have a baby, I will prefer to stay in creche, much safer ...

Inspiration from a cup of extremely bitter macchiato:
coffee and milk

Coffee can be coffee if there is only coffee,
Coffee can be coffee if you add milk in.
milk is helper and sugar is love, happiness is vaporising in the air,
but without sugar, it can still be coffee.

Macchiato is a quite arrogant exception,
it does have milk foam on top of it but barely mix up with them.

回答：不告诉你
连着两天， 被不同的人以这句话将我一把推开。两个我视为最亲近的人。
第一次听到时， 很难受， 把自己关在房间里。
第二次听到时， 更难受， 只想快快逃出那间房间。

没什麽大不了的事， 不懂为何要隐瞒。 根本是无关痛痒的事， 非要另一方听了难受才去说（可能我理解错了，很多时候是我太在乎）。 若真的不想讲， 请支吾一下， 我也会会意。若真的不能讲的事，你这样回答我不会介意。

很多人不喜欢坦诚去面对人， 双手交叉地挡在胸前， 无心中保留着距离。
而没有大智慧的人， 有时一激动就将自己大大小小的秘密全都抖出来了。 反而看看我曾经交往过的和现在周围的一些朋友， 他们都将自己保护地很好， 点头微笑地看着你，看着你在不知不觉中将自己剥得一丝不挂。
自闭症是这个社会的产物， 对人应该很小气。

Personality Test Does it work?
My result is ISFP. Then I would be along with Picasso.
But Katie insisted I am an INFP according to her observation. So a Homer?
Noticed that Missionary is one of the career preferences in INFP page? wahoo!

And the psychologist said the happiness in fact is made up of:
50% genetic
30% doing what you want to do
10% relationship
10% wealth

Then we had a huge debate on depression/eating disorder because someone didn't agree with factor of DNA. (Good to have 2 lawyers, 1 fashion designer, 1 actress and child carer within the group. ;-) )

Didn't manage to attend my own Graduation ceremony. I thought no one knows till some of my friends saw my name on the first page inside the booklet and were a bit upset because I didn't invite them...well, just to clarify that my name wasn't suppose to be there.
Came back from work training in the afternoon and rushed to uni . Chi's just finished the tediously long graduation ceremony. He graduated with first class honour in Telecom Eng. Congrats, mate! Another good news, 'white' got the graduate position offer this morning. Met karl, it's his graduation as well. blah blah...time fleets, soon after graduation we all head to different directions. Some have gone back where they come from. Some disappeared...some just left my memory... it's sad.

感觉到风在动 感觉日出在远方海上
感觉到心被轻轻地呼唤
感觉自己像透明一样
跳跃在树叶间闪动的光
这一刻思绪 无法和别人分享

我已把从前忘了 我也把未来忘了
世界还既然继续它的规则
我的心有那么自在的心跳
而生活的追逐 再也不重要

i was tempersome.

fragile you
all i see is a pair of red eyes, dull and uninspired.

“很困”，“很饿”，“很闷” 加上车前排的两个“很无聊”一起去新开的金玉满堂喝糖水。还有住附近的xsoteria和yichun, xsoteria是个很好玩的人， 每次都可以想出很多游戏给大家玩，而且不会重复的。玩到张牙舞爪,玩到桌上的叉叉全部倒地,玩到所有人向我们行注目礼...哎..好在是在唐人店,吵吵闹 闹不足为奇.

我们的所作所为，若没有爱, 都是无有.

1Corinthians13
我若能说万人的方言，并天使的话语却没有爱，我就成了呜的锣，响的钹一般。
我若有先知讲道之能，也明白各样的奥秘，各样的知识。而且有全备的信，叫我能够移山，却没有爱，我就算不得什么。
我若将所有的周济穷人，又舍己身叫人焚烧，却没有爱，仍然与我无益。
爱是恒久忍耐，又有恩慈。爱是不嫉妒。爱是不自夸。不张狂。
不作害羞的事。不求自己的益处。不轻易发怒。不计算人的恶。
不喜欢不义。只喜欢真理。
凡事包容。凡事相信。凡事盼望。凡事忍耐。
爱是永不止息。先知讲道之能，终必归于无有。说方言之能，终必停止，知识也终必归于无有。
我们现在所知道的有限，先知所讲的也有限。
等那完全的来到，这有限的必归于无有了。
我作孩子的时候，话语像孩子，心思像孩子，意念像孩子。既成了人，就把孩子的事丢弃了。
我们如今彷佛对着镜子观看，馍糊不清。（馍糊不清原文作如同谜）到那时，到那时，就要面对面了。我如今所知道的有限。到那时就全知道，如同主知道我一样。
如今常存的有信，有望，有爱，这三样，其中最大的是爱。

"Autre Monde" 1947 Escher's woodcut.
"Echo of scream" 1937 Mexican painter Davide Alfaro Siqueiros.
"As in Christ, so in me" Albrecht Durer's self portrait reveals a self-consciously melancholic and creative man who on this occasion identified himself with Christ as the Man of Sorrows.
"And there was war in heaven" Rev 12:7 - Durer Designed his brillant woodcut series of Apocalypse, was on the verge of major conflicts, dynastic wars, turkish wars and wars of religion.

Billy Graham - life is sacred.
Basil Mitchell - the Christian Conscience.

Date: 13 Oct 2004
Item: 3M adhesive hook
Product Specification: Performs well up to 120 degrees F. continuously or 158 degrees intermittently.
Incident Description: Detached itself from the wall and hit the ground with all its burdens.

心力憔悴的一天
10pm: 昨晚在我的尖叫声中， 俐打死了4只巨形飞蛾。她的救命之恩以后一定用帮她打蟑螂（不会飞的那种）来回报。
11pm:但是还有一只虽身受重毒， 潜逃去了我的房间！ 我投降， 卷起铺盖搬去和俐一起睡。
8am: 今天起床回到自己房间，又有两只恐怖的飞蛾撞来撞去...
9am: 原来尖叫可以用来提神， 早上免去了咖啡。
6pm: 打扫楼下车库, 把枯叶扫出去, 又被风吹进来, 反复几次. 看见了蟑螂,蜘蛛和无所不在的飞蛾.
7pm: 现在正坐在浓重的Mortein气体中打着字. 很兴奋, 刚才我勇敢地"喷"死了家中最后一只飞蛾(俐不在家). 我们往往是在无人求助,逼不得已要自己做时开始胜任一件件事, 开始独立.
8pm: 神经衰弱中, 每隔5秒抬头看天花板....同时研究打飞蛾的秘籍.

"We are happy, we are joyful that the verdict has been given by the Australian people but never forget the fact that governments are elected to govern not only for the people who voted for them, but also for the people who voted against them.''

Left home around 8am and queued up at nearest polling place. Reading and advices from others during past a few days have biased my preference. Browsed through some pamphlets from liberal, labor and democrates on the spot. Well, they're all smiling to me!!! No,no, John is Not. OK, I made up my mind. :P

Some other reasons I voted for Labor:
1) Mark shows no compassion for Pauline Hanson.
2) John is becoming too desperate. (who not?)
3) James Carville points the central point, "It is the economy, stupid". But John Howard's economic stability doesn't really touch a nerve with me. (stupid me know nothing about economy)
4) J.Howard has made Australia even more of a target for terrorists.
We don't need good wishes from Bush!
5) I like puppet! As long as it has a good puppeteer.
6) safe labor 8.9% at Kingsford Smith.

Good luck, Australian! Wish you will have a better government!

Which one is marginally less unbelievable?

^{1 Tim 4:12}Let no one despise you for your youth, but set the believers an example in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith, in purity. ¹³Until I come, devote yourself to the public reading of Scripture, to exhortation, to teaching. ¹⁴Do not neglect the gift you have, which was given you by prophecy when the council of elders laid their hands on you. ¹⁵Practice these things, devote yourself to them, so that all may see your progress. ¹⁶Keep a close watch on yourself and on the teaching. Persist in this, for by so doing you will save both yourself and your hearers.

Listening to Club 5's mp3 now. "Lucky" that I don't have last two talks recorded. I am afraid to hear them again. However I have already heard once.

The reason you love KIT KAT wafer bar.