影子突然想到, 自己是可以不存在的.
一是在漆黑的深夜, 二是在強光下的手術台上.
影子只能存活於無光與太多光兩者之間.
影子又想到了, 它也是無須存在於舞者凌空輕旋的瞬間.
還有,海中的魚,天上的鳥,浮著的雲.它們都沒有影子,
而沒有影子的生活是多麼了無牽掛啊.

影子自語篇2
影子被派去機場工作, 天頂的下一層, 環形的辦公室,
中間像商場一樣是空心的, 一直望到天空. (open air).
空著心,对著空.
每天抬頭就可以看無數的飛機起起落落, 這也仿彿也是她的工作一部分.
感覺甚好,但無聊極至..
於是去圖書館借了一大堆陳年舊書,
看時卻惦念著下一本.
切記切記,放下書後一定要馬上洗手...

影子自語篇
影子最近又患上了白日多眠症與夜晚失眠症.精神恍惚,語無倫次,
也有齊了自我陶醉,孤芳自赏等種種自戀行為.
特徵:
沒有朋友,對身邊的人和事缺乏基本的好奇;
幻象力豐富,但應付日常生活的能力極低;
整天只懂埋首在自己的音樂/文學世界里自得起樂...

當一個人變成你的影子.
當你的影子變成你自己.
人離開自己的影子, 是傻是對是錯,是看破,是軟弱?
人被叛自己的承諾, 是愛是恨是解脫, 或者是什麼?

Thinking to renovate my blog template again because really cannot stand the messness of the current one ->
(I've sorted my biblical study already, there are the rest):
:chinese/english
:picture only/word only/mixture
:and important/non-important/semi-important
:real life/fantasy/technical(!)
how to put them in different categories?
argh.. too complicated.. forget it.

Big Fish
Thought it was a fairtale story... till I saw the glass eyeball witch from the reflection of mirror. it therefore became a horror movie. Then it went so funny later on, and cannot stop laughing. And then the circle repeated again and again. Actually it was a very nice fairtale in the end. I'd say I love it.

Everyone's life is like a story, just depends on how you memorise it,the way you think it and describe it. And the happiest thing in the world is that someone does believe you and understand your story.

Considering the spiritual content in the film, "amazing grace" was sung by the church congregation at Edward's funeral. And also Ed bloom said he never talk about religion because "you never know who you'll offend."

我要吃粽子。。。。。。粽子粽子

Partial substance in the experimental tube for a witchy chemical reaction:
- hydrogen peroxide. known as umf.
- kopiko. known as coffee extract.
- dry seed of paullinia cupana. known as guarana.
- panax. known as ginseng.
- xylitol. known as gum.
- paracetamol. known as panadol.
- folate. known as special k, but what's for?

Pat gave me her computer monitor before her leaving, therefore my 6-year-old one can happily retire. Everything looks so different and clear on this ever-so-bright screen.
I cannot believe that I have imperiled myself for so long. May be this is the reason why my eyesight is getting worse and worse.

序
一篇千字文，如蚕吐丝一样，每一字都仿佛要耗尽余力。
她在创作过程中略略不安，总处于幻觉状态，思绪游走时，完全不受控制。
她在读她文章时隐隐发抖，也处于幻觉状态，完全被控制，思绪无法游走。

今天，读到一篇， 用了我用过的心情， 其中的意思我一眼看透;
以为除了一人,无人会读懂； 而事实恰恰相反. 好笑好笑.
写blog. 为什么要"encrypted"? 因为不敢直接了当, 这包括了我自己.
尾

我们做为基督徒, 应该认真读圣经. 仔细专研. 目的是为了更了解神. 为了以后传福音时更有信心讲给别人听.现在学的时候, 问好问题后,要用心去听别人的回答,别人是如何向你解释, 让你信服的. 不要不动大脑地问那些类同不屑的人问出的问题. 想想你问的时候, 心是叛逆的还是想试探神. 要知道神是不可被试探的, 而且神也明瞭一切的. 愚蠢的问题也可能会对一起学圣经的基督徒或刚信主的兄弟姐妹不益. 撒但会在一边开心. 所以, 要认真对待查经, 要长好果子!!

oh that's too many in sudden!
competition-wise?
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雪花烧与雪花飘是完全不同的。

I am a self-sustaining lying machine.

My first g*mail account starts to grow exponentially due to my selfishness at the beginning. Now I owns 8 gmailsss accounts and gave two to my friends because I have used up all my creativities for username.... I wonder how I gonna use them.
For where my treasure is, there my heart will be also. If I store my "possession" on the virtual internet, does that mean my heart is there also? (I indeed worry about their hard drives'quality which may cause me *heart* attack.

p.s. One error occured during the application process. When I clicked the link in an invitation email, two register windows came out. This resulted me 1 extra unexpected mail account.

Cannot be bother to play with it anymore. Waste time!

The Canon advertisement that i just saw on TV was absolutely catching. "ichi, nichi.." and then the whole background scene along with the girls was "captured" by the camera. It warns us "Be careful, it captures everything!"...
I got a bit annoyed by the all-time-cameralized events that I participated these days, although I am one of those who's holding carema. But, I have excuses to bring my DC everyday in my bag:
1. My home is currently open to the public, so I need to carry most valuable stuff with me.
2. Too many cute cats on the streets, life is too short to take photos of them.

All of you shouldn't bring one each time!
(Footnotes: speaking on a behalf of an arrogant non-fotogenic self proclaimed idiot-camera user/photographer who has an allergy to all sorts of flashes on a pretentious day.)

有一個人,就這麼一直坐著, 看著我們這塊牌子很久了. 終於一不耐煩乘著天黑將它摘了去. 阿麗心痛啊, 百來塊大洋呢. 去瞅了幾回. 仍找不到. 這個人是我今日出外砍柴時發現的,著實吓了我一跳. 後來我就站在土墩上遠遠地望他. 他倒很安定像什麼壞事都沒干一樣. 反正, 府上已派了人來查此事,我也不提. 早早熄燈裝樣睡了就是了.

分開旅行
喜歡到處跑的人, 多半是很放得下的人. 是一個人了無牽掛的日子.
外公說等他很老時(他說這句話時82歲).他說會去深山老林,過野人的生活. 我問,那你吃什麼? 他說摘果子,或自己種,一講到自己種,他又描述如何在一片地里種瓜種菜.(雖然他16歲便離家來到上海,要憑記憶種地吧)...至今不懂外公為何舍得離開我們一個人去森林, 難道不要我了嗎? (還是會把我一起帶去)?
其實我好想一個人到處旅行,去歐洲,像故事里人一樣生活. 可能很難吧, 可能會很落迫. 沒有錢, 要不停換工作(因為一定無法有固定工作), 要找地方落腳睡覺. 想拿筆寫字的時候,是否找得到一張乾淨的紙. 找到紙是否有地方攤平它?
悲觀的人,不適合流浪,容易放棄.

好幸福啊, 房東大人看我一整天在家'埋头苦讀', 送了兩塊奶油蛋糕到我房間,感動不已. 只可惜吃的太快, 應該放在眼前多幸福一會兒的~~
從星期一晚上就開始後悔沒吃到arthur生日蛋糕的我,終於如願以偿(今天做夢應該不會再有巧克力蛋糕了). 想想考完時, 一定要開始減肥了.

畫畫與寫作一樣, 若不用'心',就畫不好. 下午交了功課後, 就開始畫畫. 想畫一張肖像畫給一個即將離開的朋友. 當你畫一個人時, 你會變得更了解她, 她眼睛的弧度, 眉間的距離與唇的張合. 這是與看照片不同的. 畫風景也一樣, 畫出的景色是屬於你的, 你想要與眼睛里看出的一樣也好, 或心中所想的也好, 取決於你. 而我往往享受兩者都不是的奇妙乐趣.

紅樓夢中襲人一句:
一百年還記得著呢!比不得你,拿我的話當耳邊風,夜裡說了,早起就忘了.

The day after tomorrow好看呀。 好像真的世界末日的Trailer, 天灾（天意）是人不可能逃过的。 人如果只是人，是什麽也办不到的。 有科技，有通讯，有火，有氧气，有食物才有可能勉强活久一点。在卫星上看地球，陆地山脉已经很渺小了，更不用说人了。 末日若真是这样说来就来,我应该是不怕的。 (但还是希望不要活着经历真正的世界末日)
Not all the people can keep their promises as Jack did to his son Sam, but I am sure God can do the same.
OH....if it is ice age or something.. not the end of the world...me should start to store more food on my shelf as well as on my body in case the day is near :P

好奇怪哦, 今天作了一次小"先知"。 Josh講道讓我想到那些以前在大學讀書偶爾會來unichurch的同學.不知他們畢業後會去哪一個教會.思想飄呀飄, 飄到一個很久很久沒有見到的朋友{有些朋友不見面,往往會在記憶中消失}.想到一個名字的諧音叫"天使"的人, 一年沒見了. "天使"住的地方有許多華人,一定有可以去的教會...... 數秒鐘後大家站起唱歌時,"天使"居然"飄"進我的視線.哇....能想到誰就能見到誰多好!!!

今天,讀皇冠第594期,是50周年的特刊. 平鑫濤寫此書的誕生與成長. 一直很喜歡其不庸俗的文字加上優雅的畫,以前也有我喜歡的三毛,劉墉... 平先生說台灣曾是一片文化沙漠-(他剛從上海到台北時),使我驚訝萬分. 從小讀的很多書,聽的歌,電視上哭哭鬧鬧的電影多半是從那裡來的. 也許,也許我們的國家真的將文化禁錮得太牢了, 文學創作總給我壓抑的感覺. 也許是我的浮淺無法理解, 現在讀到一些好的, 思維敏銳的也讓我漸漸改變偏見. 我很羨慕別人能擁有滿滿一屋書,也很羨慕別人能在書店圖書館工作, 也羨慕別人家的沙發和閑人的時間. 羨慕太多是不是貪婪?

Love God and trust in Him - trust His way is always the best way. Whenever you have doubt, think back to the "cross".
I have repeatedly questioned God's unmatchable plan and purpose for the mankind. But once again, if God was willing to send to His own son to die for us..there is nothing out there we can doubt about the love He has for us.

今天買了一個新鍋.認認真真地煮了我的午飯,站在鍋面前寸步不離,史無前例.

i am studying very very hard. ..see...
(Uncle told me that he works from 8am - 9:30pm this week and sleeps less than 4 hours.}

妈妈的记忆的确比我好,她能记得在我小时候和她在澳洲生活的点点滴滴，而我总是要在她提起后几秒后才稍微有些印象。 我的记忆真差，还好现在我有乱写乱记的习惯。昨天房东和我聊天，说你那朋友如何如何，我问哪个呀。“那个当时来陪你看房子，长的很明星像的那个” 。。。我的天，我的朋友都很明星像呢 :þ 又是一个记忆超强的人。（惨了，那就意味着我曾闯过的祸，她都记得~~）。
今天是六一儿童节，找不出理由可以过。 宜说，那你就别过了，反正你天天过得都像六一。。冤枉冤枉！！
夏蕾，从坎贝拉来了，来玩3天。（看，人家六一儿童节出游玩！）虽然她不是特地来看我的，但是我还是要去看她。